Wrote this today. Hope you like it xo
have you ever had that moment where you see police officers and try not to look suspicious even though you didnt do anything and you end up looking like you just murdered ten people
We teach girls to shrink themselves, to make themselves smaller. We say to girls, ‘You can have ambition, but not too much. You should aim to be successful, but not too successful. Otherwise you will threaten the man.’ Because I am female, I am expected to aspire to marriage. I am expected to make my life choices always keeping in mind that marriage is the most important. Now marriage can be a source of joy and love and mutual support. But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage and we don’t teach boys the same? We raise girls to see each other as competitors – not for jobs or for accomplishments, which I think can be a good thing, but for the attention of men. We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings in the way that boys are.
sitting inside of you.
You are not the battlefield
where the bodies fall,
and you are not the sound of cannons
breaking the sky open.
You are what happens after the war.
And I try to roll my sleeves up
as symmetrically as possible.
I eat mints in odd numbers and
when I have cold toes
it reminds me of being a 6 year old:
all full of brains and sour cream and onion flavored chips.
I wish I still had the wall that my mom measured out my height on.
I want to be able to see how much I’ve grown.
I used to hold up three fingers
by pushing down the pinky
and leaving the other ones up.
Now, I hold down the index.
There’s no need to point at things
There’s a brick wall in the building I live in.
It always looks the same
but if you asked me to draw it today
and then asked me to draw it tomorrow,
it’s going to look different.
I look different.
I feel the same.
I’m still figuring things out.
Getting up and moving is tougher
than I thought.